There are a lot of simpler ways to make money than trying to break into writing.
I often hear about how lucky I am I make any kind of money at all with my videos, and I'm not going to lie: it's true. Lucky, no question. Tons of you want to do the same thing; your ultimate goal is to wake up, type up a script, shoot it, edit it, and throw it on the web. You want to not only be recognized and appreciated, but to be able to make your way in the world today without it taking everything you got.
I was lucky enough to get that, to an extent. It wasn't about having talent or being better, though I think I have some talent and take pains to do what I can with my production values. It wasn't about deserving it, because if anyone ever got what they actually deserve in life it'd be a nightmare. It was a lot of right place, right time.
That's not to say I don't value the opportunity I was given and work hard to be worth it, though. I try to keep doing work that's worth seeing, say things worth saying, throw some laughs out there along the way. But I recognize there's always an element of chance in these things, and now I've set my mind to doing it again in a different medium.
As I've said before, the competition isn't just fierce, it's got live wolverines in its boxer shorts to boot. That means I'm going to have to do my absolute best, and find a way to make my work exceptional. Most of all I have to make the best and most of any opportunity that comes my way, however small. It means I have to keep looking all the time, and see if there's some way to get a foot in the door. Hell, I'd even settle for getting a shoelace in there.
All that having been said, why would anyone in their right mind put themselves through it? After all, I have other marketable skills. I've been in tech for over a decade. I've got certifications. I can likely find a decent paying position in a lot of places. It would be steady, reliable work, with a weekly paycheck, benefits, 401k, all that jazz. I wouldn't have to worry.
I'd just be miserable, is all.
Yes, I'm having to look for work to suppliment what I already make so I can not only support myself but save up as well. But the thing about that is I'm intending to leave it behind once I've got a floor under me. I don't want to do tech work. It's fun sometimes, it's interesting, and it's reliable. I'll concede those points, sure. But my heart's not in it. There's no creation to it. There's no soul. It's augmenting and perpetuating the visions of others.
I want -- okay, need -- to do more than that. I want to put something out there that didn't exist before I came along, and will remain after I'm gone. I feel and think a lot of things I want to convey to others, if only to impart something I believe to be important. I want to be seen, heard, and respected for what I contribute to the vast nonsense of our patchwork culture.
I've done that to some extent, else you wouldn't be reading this right now. But it's not enough. It's the difference between a gig and a career. It's about purpose. It's about being fulfilled by my own efforts. It's about doing with myself the only thing that has ever made me feel as though I know why I'm here. It's not going to be easy, and it might not even work. But I believe I have something important to say.
Y'know. Beyond dick jokes.